Self-destruct

I adore you
You despise me
I reach out to you
You draw away from me
I’m endeared to you
You find me repulsive
I cry for the pain you cause me
You laugh at my tears
I want to build you up
You want to self-destruct
You detest me – the one who loves you
And court those who plot your fall
Now you find yourself in the dungeons
Tell me how long before it’s the end
For what measure of time you stay ousted
Before the end begins
And Gog and his cohorts lick the dust
I pray you, do not stay away too long
For you my soul yearns
This great gully between us
I can reach out across no more
And in the event that this made no sense
And self-destruction is the way for you
Just know I was the one who loved you
The one who still loves you despite

The only place I call home

I’m journeying back to the place – your heart

The only room whose doors never closed

I’m driving thru these streets – your ways

They hold familiar fondest memories

I’m totally trusting my tour guide – your hands

They work me thru the basics of the neighborhood

We come to a rare attraction – the scar

The unsavory relic of our breakup fight

Just across is the post office – your ears

In it I dropped every letter formed on my lips

I cannot forget the clinic – your bosom

It gave me the best therapy, second to none

I try to take a quick shot at the park – your mind

It inspired the best games ever

Finally, I stand at the door of your heart. You open.

Your eyes ask a million unbelieving times: Are you back for real, for good?

I murmur a thousand shameful yeses

I never should have broken this heart

The only place that ever was home